Why the world is so cruel? I admit I was not strong enough to go through all this. I love all the people around me who always support me no matter hard or easy. I really love them. but they all did not realize my true feelings. Seriously I know how to act until all the people did not realize that I was really sad. i always become a happy-go-lucky girl, always smile and laugh.. I do not want them to worry about my situation. But I have no strength to face all this.
I hate myself, but I should be grateful. I still have a happy family and friends who still love me. but most importantly .. I still have God to express all these concerns. Ya Allah, betapa hamba-mu ini sangat memerlukan mu.. bantulah aq ya Allah.. derita yang aq tggung ini semakin berat.. i still have to face all the problems but i dont mind. I know i can do it. But.... until when?? sampai bila benda nie semua akan jadi...? bolehkah aq tempuh semua ini? kuatkah aq?? sesungguhnya Allah tidak akan menguji sesuatu yg melebihi kekuatan hamba-Nya... Yaa... aq harus sedar itu.. hakikat dunia itu yg tak mungkin berubah.. sebagai mnusia, aq harus tempoh semua ini... apa yg aq boleh bt cuma.. ((: smile! dan sentiasa berdoa..
|just smile! and everything gonna be o'ckay|